I’ve gotten into trouble with these damned old feelings of mine. If I only had the choice then I’d rather choose not to be on that position. Wasn’t it a destiny that dictates to see the face of the person that I’ve waited for so long?
Considering the bigger reality of waiting, am I really in the pipeline just to see his face? Or maybe its time to be hooked into reality that it has no significance at all.
Being with the one I admired the most was quite tricky to face the here and now which I often got into mystification between his realities and my own reality. Perhaps he also has the faculty to make his own reality not real.
I wish not to fell sorry the split second I’d spend with him. Oh, how lovely it was to be hold by his hand. Imagination sometimes helps in easing the pain of longing the person to be with you for the rest of the day or shall I say to be more gullible for the rest of my life.
All I ever wanted just to know and see the person how he was and is doing at present. I never wished to be involved nor is he involved in my active list and organized task for the rest of the duration of my stay in this wonderful world of ours.
I never had been envious like this since we’ve met again. And do I have the grounds to be jealous by what he is doing right now. As if I am in paranoia stage of adolescence if there is such a stage in adolescence. (Am I still in this stage? lol) Or may be I am just trying to protect that possibility of presumptuous things that will come in my way.
They say it’s better to expect things will happen than to assume things that will happen or maybe it’s the other way around. Oh, How I wish to unlearn the feelings I had before…
Considering the bigger reality of waiting, am I really in the pipeline just to see his face? Or maybe its time to be hooked into reality that it has no significance at all.
Being with the one I admired the most was quite tricky to face the here and now which I often got into mystification between his realities and my own reality. Perhaps he also has the faculty to make his own reality not real.
I wish not to fell sorry the split second I’d spend with him. Oh, how lovely it was to be hold by his hand. Imagination sometimes helps in easing the pain of longing the person to be with you for the rest of the day or shall I say to be more gullible for the rest of my life.
All I ever wanted just to know and see the person how he was and is doing at present. I never wished to be involved nor is he involved in my active list and organized task for the rest of the duration of my stay in this wonderful world of ours.
I never had been envious like this since we’ve met again. And do I have the grounds to be jealous by what he is doing right now. As if I am in paranoia stage of adolescence if there is such a stage in adolescence. (Am I still in this stage? lol) Or may be I am just trying to protect that possibility of presumptuous things that will come in my way.
They say it’s better to expect things will happen than to assume things that will happen or maybe it’s the other way around. Oh, How I wish to unlearn the feelings I had before…
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