-a dream-

It was almost

three o'clock in the morning,

when I woke up from a horrible dream.

It was so dark when I'm chasing a

child. And I heard somebody was shouting

not so far from the place I'm standing..

All I've heard was a scream telling that,

"I saw a Ghost in here,

and they are many... Come!"

As if I am dreaming in a dream.

Prior to the news about seeing a ghosts,

We were in a sort of a pool party

with some friends, others not known to me.

When the man I coudn't deny of loving

was there at the event. I love him

even if I can't give any single reason why and

besides I don't know him that much.

To cut it short, somebody was shouting

that maybe those dead people I've known

so I went and finally saw him.

Since I coudn't bear to see him face to face

I started to run so fast and I cried so hard to weep..

My Lord! I never felt this kind of pain before..

Until I finally woke up.. Am still in pain!

When I was running then, I was so surprised

that he was chasing me till we run out of breathe

so we stopped and he holds my hand

and embraced me so tightly without

uttering any words..

I had this feelings of love towards the person

that now I can no longer impart since he is dead.

I can feel the many regrets that we don't

have chances left that sooner or later

he will vanish and meet his creator.

Since I wasn't able to bear the pain

of accepting the reality of his death...

that was the time I woke up

from a horrible dream of mine.

Too bad even in a bigger reality

still his not here with me.

I don't know what was

the meaning of my dream...

Would I still hope that one day

this could be real?

The real love I wanted to share?

Oh, God I am still crying for the man

that is a half stranger and a half friend to me..

As I continue writing this,

flashbacks I've seen as if real!

My dear I hope you are okay.

I know your still asleep by now.

I couldn't help myself but cry..

crying for the man still alive and

yet dead on my own dream.

It was really a horrible dream

I've ever experienced..

I was so scared to loss you,

tears begun flowing from my eyes.

Because I know the very fact

that am loosing you in real life.

I am perhaps loosing my husband,

the one that I've waited for so long.

What else can I say but

Goodbye My Dear,

so long and Farewell! ;(